When one loves too much

*sigh*

Its that time again in the journey of life where one arrived at the junction - to turn left or right? In my 'junction' this time, I have to decide between 'giving up' or 'continue to "try" '. One may tell me that its easier to give up than to try, yet another may tell me never to give up. Or worse, advises Confucious - take the middle path. Sorry Confucious, no middle path this time.

I guess 'giving up' shall be my most possible way out. I tried 'trying' but one keeps disappoint you again and again and then, again. Maybe I've changed. Maybe WE've changed. Our perception and beliefs are no longer linear. What you thinks is alright is not acceptable of mine. Maybe you think that you are being kind, but reality is - you are being cruel without realizing it.

I know ...

I shouldnt expect someone to live up to my standards. I have been told - I am overly sensitive. Its true - I am commitment shy. Its hard for me to get close with someone, but when i do, I fell hard into it. I take seriously those who are dear to me. Those that are not, I dont care a FU$% what will happen to then. I fiercely loves and am doggedly loyal to those I loves.

Everyone has their own views and perspectives. There are many things about me too that you may not see eye to eye with. BUT...

I just cant ignore the fact that - our beliefs contradicts. I just cant accept the decisions you made. I dont see your point/s. I got disappointed that you actually behaved that way... It hurts you know, to see the person you care so dearly to do things that you never believed they would. It tears my heart chunk by chunk to know how you make a fool out of yourself. It drains my blood profusely to witness how you entangle yourself in that web of karma. It kills me immediately to see how a smile turned into misery on your face in a split minute of a phone call.

I cant take it anymore. Yeah, I care too much, but its just me. Its best if I just give up and walk the other way and 'no eye see'.

I guess, by walking away, I can yet cherish those beautiful and wonderful moments we shared.

Thanks for everything but the heartbreak.

Food Blog

Yup, finally my new hp joined me in my life journey...keke... This means there will be more pics for you guys to sakit mata from now on :P Will have to bersabar with the blurry pics now till i gets my digi cam ya! *wink* Yup, my purchase was sealed at SgWang and, yes, the guy who sold it to me is cute! Muahahahahahahahahahar...! The guy in the stall next to his is even more *gasp* lets just say - sooooo the type i lust over... :P Yeah, WL nearly have to use her teeth and claws to drag me away... :P Well worth my onehour-trafficjam-drive there... kekeke...



Ok, my virgin food-blog :P Hopefully there'll be many more on the way! After the purchase, the blood-deprived-turned-high-blood-pressure-me ( Just donated blood in conjuction with WesakDay and after salivating over those cute hp sales people :P ) staggered my way to the rooftop floor for dinner. We, the 3 pigs ( WL, Pammie and Me ) decided to try out the Jap place there. The piggies in us took the BBQ Buffet which is RM28.80++. Quite a bargain la as it includes the sushi on the kaiten-belt ( in this case, its a train running on railways with plates of sushi on its trailers ), ramen, soba, teriyaki and many more in a listed menu. Didnt take many pics as my hp batt was low.

* Drool - SP - drool for not joining us last weekend :P *

I do not highly recommend it though. Well, the food was so-so. Like I quoted it that day - Pirated Version of Jap food. They look like Jap food, but tasted oh-so-different. Its like they substituted the ingredients with local ones. Even the shoyu sauce tastes like the ordinary kitchen light soysauce. Pammie said that even the wasabi didnt taste hot too.

What I like though, was the teriyaki beef, agedashi tofu, the oysters and the sashimi.

The ambiance was not bad. The booths were comfy and provided some privacy. Hey! Pigs like me needed some privacy while pigging out - just in case a handsome guy sauntered past and saw my pig-feasting-face :P The staffs were nice and patient while answering to our numerous orders again and again...hehehe...

Overall, shall give it a 5/10 la. Heehee...

Yippie-yippe Ya-Ya!

Yippie-yippe Ya-Ya!

I finally have in possession a brand new Nokia 6111!

Yippie-yippe Ya-Ya!

Such a happy yet woozy panda today!

Malaysians - and they think they are wiser...

I was reading NST the other day and came across this article. Apparently there's this board in Malaysia which is in-charge of languages or sumthing which in short form also known as MALAS. Sori, i terlupa the full name liao.

This fella, the head of this MALAS board, was on his petition to stop Malaysian screen to showcase the Da Vinci Code. Well, you must be guessing - aiya, must because itu story punya religious issues la pasal they tak mau kasi sama dia naik. Well, gotcha! You are wrong.

Ya, i was shocked at the truth too. Their main call for it to be banned was due to the title of the movie itself. The very intellectual people in the board claims that the title is indirectly influencing, especially young people, the wrong usage of language. People will start using 'da' to replace 'the'. Youngsters especially are already using hip-hop style languages which are not correct. Unless the producers changes the title to 'The THE vinci code ' ,it should be banned from the Malaysian screens.

I was like - can some kind fella help to retrieve my jaw from the muddy ground, please?

Excuse me, dearest intellectual beings, the word ' da' in the title - the DA vinci code - refers to the works of Leonardo DA VINCI's not THE Vinci's work. It has NOTHING, absolutely NOTHING to do with trying to convert the already poor in English Malaysians. Unless, of course, you all want to get our famous bomohs to call Leonardo DA VINCI from the graves to - erm, discuss about the change of his name to Leonardo THE Vinci?

And the ironic part, in the end of the article, they claimed that they have yet to receive response from the producers of the film. Ha-ha.

Me student - you no believe?

Quick! Show me which ever bottle of anti-aging cream that miraculously works overnight and i'll buy it no matter how much it costs!

Desperation - you can smell it from one mountain away. Yup - that was what punch me in my old face the other day.

There's this kopitiam near my uni - the ONLY chinese glutton-stalls restaurant around that area where almost all chinese students in my uni flock to for an economical meal. And so there was I, on the hour and half before my exam starts, to have some brekkie.

In those critical few hours before the paper starts, i was multi-tasking again (well, a habit I cant stop :P) - trying to eat, read, memorize and text-messaging. I suppose the Pan-Mein aunty recognized me adi from my frequent trips to her stall and she flashed me a big smile. Prolly cos i ordered from her :P

Pan-mein Aunty : Exam, huh?

Sleepy-me : Ya lor...

Pan-mein Aunty : You study at the uni here?

Sleepy-me : Ya.

Pan-mein Aunty : Oh... So you oso work around here? Then go for exam later la isit?

Sleepy-me : Huh? No la...

Pan-mein Aunty : * Surprised look complete with eyes rolled big * You study part time, then only need to come for exams rite?

No longer Sleepy-me : NO ar... Me full-time student la... *blushing furiously*

Pan-mein Aunty : * Even more surprised, eyes rolled even bigger, now added a big hole in her mouth* ah.... ( and quickly squirried away... )

O.......................M..........................G......................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I seriously need to 'kim tou' man! And that day, I wasnt wearing any make-up and i totally was in a casual hooded jacket with a long, bohemian skirt. I do wanted to scream when i saw Pan-mein Aunty's facial expression. Do i seriously look old?

*sigh* Btw, this isnt the first time. A few times, even my uni's security pakciks only allowed me into the uni's premises upon VERIFICATION of my student ID. *double sigh* And dont even start on those salespersons who were never ever suscipious that i might still am a student.

There was even once, when i politely tells a credit-card salesman that i'm not working yet, he just draw a big smile on his face and replied, " Oh, its ok. Maybe your husband can sign-up and now we are having a promo - where supplementary cards issued to their spouse entitles them a free...blah...blah... " F@#$%^%$@#*&^

So you see - I am so totally look old. I might as well just start my application to join the senior citizen's club. Gawd - hand me that bottle of anti-aging cream please - oh, what the hell - hand me the complete range!

When you thinks that you are wiser...

At times, I do wonder - what kind of a mother I would be to my future kids. From my observations through my part-time job at a local pediatric clinic, i came across different styles of parenting - where some amazes me and some, well, puzzles me... Well, its just me - the curious, fatty cat :P

But i do have to admit that i've managed to pick up lots of tacit knowledge about life and parenting from this job. Despite the bullying working hours and okay-la pay, i can conclude that i gain more from the job than the job on me. The experience changed my pigeon-holed view of parenting and childcare.

Back to the topic of the day, what i intented to share isnt about my oh-so-meagre job but of a funny yet liberating scene i witnessed that comes from an innocent ( or maybe not ) lil girl.

I was at the big M fast food chain in Taipan, USJ waiting for my take-outs. It was not yet the busy hour therefore i managed to erm... witness the scene rather explicitly. :P

A mother with her daughter, who prolly about 6-8 year old, was queuing behind of me. Apparently they were just back from a violin music class ( noted the violin case that girl was carrying) and the mother wanted to get a snack for her to last till dinnertime.

As common as it is at fastfood chains, one can come across plenty of kids ranting and 'persuading' their parents to get them the happy meal - not for the meal but the toy it comes with. And so the lil gal too was telling her mum REPEATEDLY that she wanted the toy. I wasnt 100% sure-la, if that mother of hers was trying to 'lann-see' or show off her fabulous parenting but this was what happened.

Like most parents, that mother started to tell her daughter (in a loud enough voice) - well, the more descriptive word should be - 'reasoned' with the little girl how much is the price difference between a normal set meal and the toy-meal and how many toys they already in possession back home. The lil girl whined again about the toy, and her mum told her that the toy is not necessary and insisted that they purchase the burger ala carte. The lil girl sulked.

Well, nothing out of ordinary rite, you will question me. This is where the best part come in.

The sulky girl then points to the little box placed strategically beside the cash register where they 'encourage' customers to make little donations of small change. The mother - I guess was acting pandai-pandai and anxious to show her fantastic parenting, (again, in a loud enough voice) explained what the box is for.

Mak yg pandai : Oh! That box is for charity wan... You see, here it says - RMCharityCollection.

Lil girl : Ah... Got a lot of money inside!

Mak yg pandai : Yup, people put money in there so that can help other people.

Lil girl that LAGI pandai : Oh... mum,then why you never help people wan? (looking back at her mum in big, round eyes)

Embarrassed mum : er....er.... (then pulls her daughter to the next queue to place their order)

Pai-seh anot when your child loudly ask you why you are not donating some change to help others. You see, some parents thinks that they are smart enough to carry parenting in a different approach from our traditional parents. What some of them overlooked is how witty kids nowadays are compared to doinky us previously. That lil girl's simple question totally outsmarted her mum. I wonder why that mak yg sebelum ini macam pandai sangat suddenly was dumbfounded with the girl's question. Even me know how to answer to that question - but thats not my daughter.

So, friends, the moral of this story is, give that damn kid that darn happy meal with toys to avoid them embarrassing you in public :P

Of course, dont try to berlagak pandai and try to act like a highly-educated parent in public if you are not prepared to deal with circumstances your child will ask you some challenging questions. I have to give kudos to that lil girl who managed to shut the f@$% off her snobby mum.

This bookmarks my life's lesson not to deny kids of that happy meal toy or they'll revenge on you in the form of public humiliation. *wink*